clarity

Thursday, May 16, 2013




yesterday i was cleaning my studio. i picked up a book by Louise Bourgeois and inside, written on a piece of paper i found this.

we are always waiting for the big event that will change our lives forever. not to make our lives a paradise, but to give us direction, to find our what our mission is, what is worth struggling for.

i made this note ten years ago, it's by Doug Aitken. i have been searching my whole life. it's funny to look back on things i've written ten or even thirteen years ago and think, wow, i was thinking, growing, and searching even back then. it's been a long road. 

i have conversations almost daily with people about living deeply, finding your passion, and taking steps to bring our dreams alive. much of the time it's me talking, because i by no means, have it figured out. i have been working on projects for years that are still not manifested. i am not completely where i want to be with my art. but this year i feel as if i have taken some major steps into action. it's rough, sometimes the path gets obscured, i have moments of doubt and feel like so many people are years ahead of me. but then i remember that it's not a race, it's not a destination. the big event that we are waiting for is simply clarity. clarity to give us direction, to move forward and be inspired. 

7 comments:

  1. you hit this one on the head for me Karina. i always feel like there are so many even younger than me who have always known what they wanted to do and get on their path at a young age and do it. i have never been like that. i am forty and still trying to find my path. motherhood found me and i love being a mother but i am more than just a mother...

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    1. I hear you. I think the great thing is like Katie mentioned below, we are always changing. People are recreating themselves and job-shifting multiple times during their life. So, it's really never too late to find and pursue a passion. I think getting older and having kids, really brings you into who you are even more. I discovered a few of my passions and projects I am pursuing since having kids. I feel like it's such a creative time. Cheers to forty and finding yourself!

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    2. yes. and being a late bloomer! ;)

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  2. Thank you for writing this post! I'm constantly striving toward clarity...the interesting thing is that I think that search will always be there (at least for me). We, as humans, are always changing, so why not our passions? Or at least how we express our passions. I think that realization helps me feel a bit less dilettantish in my changing interests, I suppose... :)

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    1. Hi Katie, I totally agree about the search being there throughout our lives. I think that our interests and passions do change and that is great, right, it means we're growing and expanding. It's fabulous you've realized that :) Do you find that you have cloudy and clear periods in your life? For me I will have something that I am totally engrossed in and pursuing and I feel clear, happy, and fulfilled. And then at some point, I crave a change, or I notice that I am looking for clarity again. I think that it's an indicator that I need to change something in my life or pursue something new. It's interesting, learning to embrace change throughout life. Thanks for your thoughts! xx

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  3. Yes! I'm definitely noticing it more and more now that I'm older. Passing that 40 benchmark makes you stop and think... ;) I'm noticing the journey much more than the end result recently. Whether at a cloudy or clear moment, I seem to take notice more. And hopefully it results in overall clarity of purpose... :)

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    1. Well said, Katie. It has always been about the journey, it's what makes life so imperfectly, perfect. I'm starting to embrace that idea more and more as I revisit it throughout my life. That one idea gives us enough purpose for many lifetimes.

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